Hope dangles on a string
Like slow-spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing so hypnotizing
I am captivated
This song may have been written from a male perspective, but it has followed me around and fit so perfectly into my life. As some already know, I let go of pet around 20 years ago, but I never forgot about him. I matured and acknowledged my flaws while carrying around the guilt for treating him so poorly. I tried to get in touch with him a few times over the years but it wasn’t meant to happen…until 2 years ago.
Hope dangled for me, and for him, throughout our failed relationships, divorces, and moves from one side of the country to the other. Redemption was agonizingly slow but definitely worth the wait.
So turn up the corners of your lips,
Part them and feel my finger tips,
Trace the moment, fall forever.
Meeting him in person broke open the dam and the once repressed feelings I had came pouring out. It only took one touch and I fell.
Defense is paper thin.
Just one touch and I’ll be in,
Too deep now to ever swim,
Against the current.
In all fairness, his defense against me was ‘paper thin’. At times it still is and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I know who we are now as individuals and who we are together. I feel safe to say that I’m not afraid of stomping all over him, he is strong enough now to know when to say stop.
It took a long time but I have finally freed myself of the guilt I have carried around for so many years.
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right, I swear I’m right
Swear I knew it all along and
I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourselfDashboard Confessionals- Vindicated written by Christopher Carrabba