Love of a Lifetime

Write a letter to your first love…or to your younger self at that time. What did you take away? What do you remember? Are your memories happy, sad…bittersweet? How did you grow? Was your first love even a person?

Dear S,

I wish I could remember all of the little things that made me decide to end our relationship. I can’t even recall if there was even a big thing. If I could recall any of them maybe I could forgive myself for hurting you.

We were very young and I was quite selfish, but that doesn’t excuse hurting another person. I believe I have paid for all my mistakes and in some cases two-fold.

I’ve thought about you often and always in a positive way. You never forget your first. I can only hope life has treated you well.

Just know that you will always have a piece of my heart.

-J.

Pet knows how I feel and he has tried to help me let go and forgive myself. He has forgiven me and given me the most wonderful gift, him and his submission to me.

I’m still in awe that we are reconnected and the love that we share. It is completely different than the young love we once had. Honestly, it’s better.

I’ve reflected back on how our lives have gone, the things we experienced. I wouldn’t change any of it, for if I did we may not have what we have now. It took all those life lessons and heartbreaking, gut wrenching moments to show us that what we have is very special.

He is my best friend, my soul mate, my twin flame. He knows me better than I know myself. I know that no matter what life throws at us we can handle it and we will come out shining on the other side.

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