I miss me

I miss me

I miss writing the most. I still have the intention and all the swirling thoughts, I just struggle to get them down on “paper”. I have many things I want to share including the last visit with pet, I just don’t have the energy to get them flushed out.

I feel so wishy-washy with all of my commitments and it has really reflected here. I used to be that person everyone could count on. I met deadlines, I completed projects in plenty of time and I still had something left to give.

I don’t have that right now. I’m weary and so tired. I miss the old me. I want her to come back. I want to feel the excitement sharing what silly little thing pet did. I want to feel like myself once again.

Today was the first of several appointments. A new medication and a scraping of skin cells was done. Now I wait. We all know how patient I am.. ha! It’s one step closer to bringing the old me back. One day at a time.

8 thoughts on “I miss me

  1. Hang in there, Jae, first things first. You will find yourself again, will have time for those things again. Wishing you well with all things going on.
    ~ Marie xox

  2. I miss the you that you enjoyed being too, so spontaneous and full of fun, popping with ideas and energy BUT darling you are working through a lot now. Your body is processing things, sorting out what it can cope with and trying to let you know what is toxic for it.

    Have patience, give yourself time. Sleep, listen to music, talk with loved ones and do not apply pressure or deadlines – it will come back, maybe better than before. Those who love and support you will happily wait for that x

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