Diary of an Insatiable Slut

Diary of an Insatiable Slut

The past few months have taught me more than I ever thought I would learn. What I once thought was a safe supportive place has turned into a heated battleground. Anger and hate fueled many and what was left was a battered and broken community.

I had a choice- we all had a choice. I chose to support the cause in my real life, just as I have always done. I don’t support the way it is being portrayed online and I don’t support any negativity towards LGBTQ+. That being said, I chose to take my blogging into a different direction and leave the sex blogging community behind. I still read and support the blogs that I enjoyed prior to all of this and I will continue to do so.

So as the title indicates… I may have left the online “community” but I’m still in the BDSM lifestyle. I have Pet and we have our trials and tribulations, which I’m hoping to write more about here. I am still a Switch and while I adore my Domme side, my bratty submissive side has come to the forefront as of late. Thus the insatiable and incorrigible slut has made her appearance, giving way to the next direction of this blog.

One part of the blog will be my diary of what/how I’m feeling and how it ties into my relationships. Going back to my roots as Brigit Delaney has said in her post here. I’m going back to writing what I want to write in the moment and if it ties into one of the memes I follow then I will link it. I lost this voice over the past year and stopped writing for me, I was only writing for the prompt. I think my best writing is when I put my whole self into it, and that is what I hope to achieve.

The second part of this blog is the music. Music has always been a big part of my life. It always will be as I share my passion with others. I grew up to my dad singing old country in his Ford pickup truck. He would belt out Hank Williams Jr, George Strait and the Nitty Gritty Dirt Band. These are some of the most fondest memories of growing up. Even now my dad still turns the radio up and sings (out of tune) to many of the popular songs.

I’m also the classical and jazz music nerd. I played the cello through all of my school years. I picked up the violin along the way and also played percussion in the band. My nephew seems to have gotten my music gene. He can play just about every instrument he picks up, but his heart lies with the saxophones. Currently he is playing the baritone sax in marching band. He makes me so proud and I will continue to gush over him. These are the reasons why I created my music meme- Musically Ranting. I hope that the music bug continues to spread and I’m going to do my best to help it.

By making these changes I don’t feel the loss as much. I can reconnect with myself and dive deeper into my submission. I’ve missed her, she is the softer side of me, the carefree and fun side. She also carries most of my experiences in BDSM and D/s. It’s only fair I give her time in the light, just as I have given my Domme side. (Don’t worry the Domme in me isn’t going anywhere either.) I want to find the balance between the two, by writing my way through my experiences, I will find it.

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25 thoughts on “Diary of an Insatiable Slut

  1. Good for you, J. It seems this whole mess really forced a lot of us to reevaluate what we are doing here and for whom we are doing it. I’m not one to select sides in a war that is not mine, and trying to avoid the crossfire has been difficult.

    It’s time to rebuild, each of us on our own terms. Time to keep and make new connections. The internet is a big place, and there is plenty of room for all of our voices.

    1. Thank you Brigit. I tried not to select a side but unfortunately was dragged into it by association. So I did what I needed to for my own mental health. It doesn’t make it right or wrong, it just is what it is.

      There is plenty of room for us all and I can only hope that others will see that as well.

      1. I agree. The sex blogging community as a whole is large and wide. We all have our sub-genres and don’t really have a great need to overlap or interact. I feel like there has been an unfair expectation that we should be following and supporting particular sub genres or we are somehow not “sex positive.”

  2. I am anti hate. Pro sex, but anti hate. I’ve read some posts by some who have talked about what happened. So I have an idea of what caused this issue. I don’t know who set everything off. I don’t know who was attacked. I only know that no one deserves to be attacked for their sexuality. I’m glad you’re still around—regardless of what you write about.

    1. Thank you Michael. I won’t rehash everything as it doesn’t do anyone any good when trying to move forward. I appreciate that you are still here following along my chaos. ❤️ I still a lot of catching up to do on yours. 😉

          1. Warning- sappy moment. You have always been a delight when you comment. Thank you for the smiles and the laughs, the world needs more of those. ❤️

  3. I really enjoyed reading this and look forward to more from your insatiable slut. I find it so interesting the way that our different parts make up the whole and that some seem to take centre stage to protect us for a while.

    So much of what you have written about here rings true for me too. I became subsumed into something that I was clearly never really a part of and I think it did impact on what I wrote and how I wrote. I am glad to be moving more in my own direction and to be away from that community too. As has been said in the comments, there is surely enough space for all voices, and people tend to only read those who interest them and are likeminded anyway.

    Like you, I have fallen desperately behind but hope to catch up on all the great writing I have missed out on reading 😊

  4. Oh I meant to say too thank you for adding to TMA. Did you see also that I had started a diary project? There is no closing date to link up but I thought it would make a nice resource to have a snapshot into 7 days in the life. Not sure if it will fit with what you hope to write just now but perhaps at some point it would x

    1. I was trying to find the diary project but wasn’t sure if it is on your site and I missed it or it’s on the safeword/s site? I’ll be checking again because I am interested.

  5. Wise motivations and actions Jae. Following your heart & your instincts will win out in that you have stayed true.
    I let the tail wag the dog too (regarding memes) and back in December I said ‘no more’ but now I intend to do so. The community is indeed large so there should be room for all, that said I always find your music prompts very alluring because so many of my writing is inspired by lyrics

    1. Thank you Posy! I intend to let the dog do all the wagging from here on out. I am so glad that you enjoy the music prompts. Music is something we can all stand behind and still agree to have differing opinions on what a piece means.

  6. I have been blinded for far too long, and feel like I have a long way to go to find myself again, but one thing I do know is that I too have left the sex blogging community behind and will re-find my voice on my blog. I just want blogging to be nice again, and not the stressed place it has been for too long. It shouldn’t be a job anymore (I always called it my second job for the hours I put in) but should return to being a hobby. And, I very much look forward to read what you share for your diary, and of course will continue to enjoy the music 🙂
    ~ Marie

    1. You’re right Marie, when it becomes a job and doesn’t being you joy it’s time for a change. I really appreciate your thoughts and comments. I’m very glad you enjoy the music and I’ll keep the prompts coming! 😊

  7. You get so many things right here. The memes are definitely a motivator to think about topics, but then can also risk losing your own voice. That’s certainly not the fault of anyone running a meme – I don’t know where I would be without them. Taking a break, writing only when it matters for yourself, makes total sense. I’ll be there, whatever you do. We’re all grateful to have you as part of our lives.

    1. Thank you so much for your kindness Francesca. The memes helped me get a good start with writing and I will still do a few that I love, but limiting myself and writing what I feel will be more apparent in them. I do love reading your posts and I’m grateful you are in mine as well!

  8. I’m glad you aren’t feeling the loss as much by making these changes and deciding to follow what feels good for you to write about and focus on now. I’m excited for you, the prospect of diving deeper into your submission too and am excited to read about it too

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