But What Am I?

But What Am I?

Knew I was falling when I looked inside your eyes
She said, “I know you are, but what am I?”

Tell me, have you seen a sunset
Turn into a sunrise?
Kiss right through the night?
‘Cause we should try that sometime
Hold you ’til the mornin’
And if I said I’m fallin’
Would you just reply
“I know you are, but what am I?”

What am I? I’m different. I used to think that was the worst type of person to be, not anymore. I thrive on being the odd one out, it is better for me as I can sit back and observe others before I choose to join in. Even when I do join in I’m still feel like I’m on the outside. I’ve discovered some of the best people are the ones that make you scratch your head in wonder.

So what am I? I’m not an introvert but I’m not an extrovert either. I’m introvertly extroverted or is it the other way around? I join in when I’m comfortable with who is around me but it’s also exhausting. I would rather watch people go about their daily lives and how they interact with other people. You can tell a lot about a person just watching them at work or even at the grocery store.

Being different is what draws me to the guys I date. I don’t choose the “9-5 guy”. The relationship I have with S has been based on many years of him traveling for work. We didn’t live in the same house consistently until this past year. We have been together 12 and even now his schedule is still a bit chaotic.

Pet is my odd duck, he mirrors my quirkiness. He doesn’t work a daytime job and he doesn’t date one gender over the other. I feel pretty special that he still chooses me even though he could date another who was single and was in person more often. I hope I bring out the best in him as well.

So what does all of this have to do with observing others? Well humans tend to mimic one another and we are essentially like pack animals. We thrive on the company of other people even if we try to deny it. We observe from a young age and then mimic what we have learned. It’s not always a good thing and when we discover that for ourselves we change our behavior.

So what do you observe when you meet me? My blog only shows you what I want you to see. Every now and then glimpses of the person I am will shine through and if you are paying close enough attention you may find that I’m really not that different after all.

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7 thoughts on “But What Am I?

    1. Haha.. well I am pretty Switchy so I guess ambivert isn’t far off. I had to look it up honestly, I had no idea I thought it was one or the other. Thank you TJ ❤️

  1. “I’m introvertly extroverted or is it the other way around?”

    Yeah, I can relate to this, along with the frequent choice to be different. I dont want to stand out though – so I go for quirky, just a little bit different. Ticks the box for me!

    I love how you’ve discussed and dissected your ways and preferences, and even the partners you’ve chosen need to fit the puzzle (of course). You’re not alone in presenting only the pieces of yourself you want to share in your blog – the vast majority of us are doing that. Please keep sharing though!

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