It’s easy to say that you don’t hold grudges. I used to think that I never did, forgive and forget right? Wrong- I may forgive but I never forget.
I know I’ve used this quote before, but Maya Angelou said it best, “I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
B had a falling out with the neighbor’s child many months ago. It was a silly argument and hurtful things were said, but what bothered him the most was how the other child made him feel. He was content with playing with other children in the neighborhood until the school closed. B loves being outside and the neighbor’s child was the only one allowed to play so they began playing once again.
When I asked him about it he said, “Mom, life is short and I need a friend to play with.” That was that, fight over and they have played together since.
This reminded me of a grudge I have kept for way too long. B has never met his great- grandmother on my side of the family. There was a long running feud with my dad and his mom and I never forgave her. I was determined that she would never meet my son because of this. My dad has made amends with her over this past year, but I still held my grudge.
During my last visit to my parent’s house my dad asked if I would be willing to have dinner with her and my aunt as they were in town. I was hesitant, but I did eventually agree. She was thrilled to see me as it had been at least 15 years since we last met. It was a little awkward but dinner went well. I told my dad that on my next visit I’ll would bring B and I would let him meet her.
The visit didn’t happen due to Covid-19 and about a month prior to the lockdown my grandmother fell and broke her hip. I’m not sure when our next visit will be at this point.
Over the past few weeks I have taken time away from social media and slowed down on my blogging, pulling away from all the memes I love. However, I had committed to a project and one month long meme (which I’m very behind) as my home life is very time consuming. I know I’m not the only one feeling the pressure right now. It is making the ability to deal with conflicts non-existent. I’m glad I chose to let go of the grudge I was holding and hopefully someday soon B will enjoy time with his great-grandmother.
My theme for this year’s meme is ‘Lessons my son has taught me’. No matter our age we are never to old to learn something about ourselves. To read what other’s have written please click here.