“I’m trying but I keep falling down / I cry out but nothing comes now / I’m giving my all and I know peace will come / I never wanted to need someone
Yeah, I wanted to play tough, thought I could do all this on my own / But even Superwoman sometimes needed Superman’s soul
Help me out of this hell / Your love lifts me up like helium / Your love lifts me up when I’m down, down, down / When I’ve hit the ground, you’re all I need
And if you let go, I’ll float towards the sun / I’m stronger ’cause you fill me up / But when the fear comes, I drift towards the ground / I’m lucky that you’re around” -Sia (Helium)
Even Dommes have off days. We think too much, feel too much, everything is just too much.
It’s in these moments that he steps up. He doesn’t take control, because he doesn’t need to. He is just there, supporting me when I’m at my lowest. In these moments I love him so much my heart hurts.
Many days I feel like superwoman. I tackle every problem thrown at me and for the most part a resolution. It’s much easier when they are not my problems. As I’ve told pet before, it is much easier to give advice than it is take my own. I believe most people are like that though.
I don’t feel 100% today and he knows it. I’m much better than last night, but the anxiety is still there. A hot shower, much needed coffee, and his support have helped me. I can’t ever repay him for the love and kindness, all I can do is give him the same when he has his off days. That nagging little voice tells me that it won’t be good enough, I’m not good enough for him.
So instead of spiraling down today, I’ve got the music turned up, I’m focusing on work, and I’m counting the hours until I get to hear and see this sweet man again.
It’s really corny, but I keep replaying that saying, “He is the man, the myth, the legend!” The best part of it.. he is mine!